Update.

My baby is 9 months old?! He has officially been on this earth for as many weeks as he was inside my tummy. It kinda blows my mind. 

I had every intention to update my blog with every milestone and month marker... But here I am. Nine months later. This whole motherhood thing is quite possibly the most amazing thing I can ever do. Some days it scares me and I feel completely overwhelmed. But most days it makes me want to be better, love harder, and be more present. Motherhood is hard to explain until you become one. So many emotions on the daily. I am so grateful I have been entrusted with such an important and strong little soul.

River is a wild one, but he is also very sweet. He is a definite mama's boy. He loves getting tickle tortured and smothered in kisses. He adores mowgli and looks for him first thing when he wakes up in the morning. It's kinda the cutest. 

He probably would prefer to live in the water if he could. He loves the pool, bath, drinking fountains and pretty much anything else that has to do with water. Reading time is maybe his next favorite. It's so cute when he comes and sits on my lap and we read all his favorite books, but he loves when his papa reads him his Korean books most. 

I am a little scared river is going to start running before he learns to walk. He is a speedy crawler, but would prefer to hold his mamas hands and walk like a little adult. He has the best smile right now with his two bottom teeth and one fang tooth on top. He's our little snaggle-tooth. He is still mainly breast fed, but loves gnawing on broccoli and could eat black beans all day. so weird. Definitely his father's son on that one. He has the cutest voice/growl. He knows how to throw a tantrum. He loves looking for airplanes (we live by a small airport) and is fascinated by anything with a motor (the vitamix, vacuum, motorcycles, trucks...) such a boy. 

We are experiencing a love like never before with this baby boy of ours. He is growing too fast for his mama though. All 22lbs of him. Our little chubba love. Happy nine months river zen.

I love you. 

Xo

Viva Las Vegas.

It's official, we are living back in the beautiful desert of Las Vegas. I look back at my last post and can't believe how fast life can change, and also how much river has grown in just 3 months. Whoa. It makes me wanna take a deep breath and stop time just thinking about it. Ha. Really though, it just helps me to realize the saying, "the only constant thing in life is change." I love that truth. The unknown used to scare me, (if I'm gonna be honest, it still gives me a little anxiety when we are about to embark on something drastic... Like packing up your entire house and moving into a tiny one bedroom apt in a completely different state... but I have learned to actually love change. It means adventure, problem solving and putting myself in an uncomfortable situation to see how much I can grow coming out of it. It doesn't mean it will be easy. It may be really hard. But it's our choice to make it hard or not. It's just perspective (thanks husband;)...he's so good at change).

Anyway, I guess my long rant is about how crazy (in a good way) these past few months have been. I am so grateful to be back at work... If you can even call it that;) It's the perfect "mom" job for me because I still get to do what I love and it's only a couple hours at night. Sometimes the husband and babe come with me and it's even better! Seeing river in the audience with his little earplugs in makes my heart almost explode. He loves watching the show...well, maybe he thinks it's boring because he falls asleep in it every time? Who knows?  Ha. 

Leaving Vegas last year, I never thought I'd be back, but it feels right. We don't know what the future holds...no one does...but we are here...in the present. Happy where we are for the time being and trying to figure out this thing called life. 

Ps. I just have to...my awesome cousin (loveisallyouneed.me) took some quick family photos while we were in Utah and I am in love. 

  I love my little family with all of my heart. 

                 Here's to adventure. 

                              Xo