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i figured i would stop getting mad at myself for the lack of keeping a steady record on my blog and just stick to my usual three month update. at least I'm getting to every three right? i don't know… i wish i had more time in the day to accomplish everything, but then again, who doesn't? River is 3 months old…ALREADY?!! People warned be about a lot of things before i became a mama, and one of them was that you better cherish every moment, because it goes by too fast. And that my friends, is all true. i kinda hate it. i find myself going back to pictures of when he was only a few days old and can't believe how much he has grown. and then i might start crying. 

So... thats what i have been doing these past 3 months….cherishing every moment. or at least trying. i try to cherish all the diaper changes, the crying that i don't quite understand yet, and most of all when my arm feels like its going to fall off from lugging this little chub around all day (because he will only sleep in my arms) i try and cherish that too. i try to cherish the hard and the best moments, like when he smiles and giggles at my absurd singing off key, because i know, he won't be little forever. 

three months

one month

two months

we took River to see the ocean for a little pre christmas trip. it was a success. he loved it. i can't wait to take him back there again, and again, and eventually again when we live on one;)

this is how we usually are all day if
 i want to get anything done

and this smile…i can't even handle. 

we pretty much live in the mountains. well, at least for a couple hours everyday hiking mowgli around. River was out hiking in them at just 2 days old.

 i hope he will develop a love and appreciation for nature someday. 

oh, and then remember how we just celebrated christmas and new years. its kinda a blur now. our christmas was low key. we started a few new family traditions of our own and also stuck with some originals. we spent most the holidays with the people we love, our families. 

i turned 27. what? i try not to think about it. I'm old. ugh. 27 sounds so much older than 26. ew. we celebrated in the mountains of course. that always makes for a good birthday;)

we also celebrated this guys birth in our church by giving him a blessing. it was a low key, beautiful day. i can't believe such a big spirit can fit inside such a tiny body. 

so there you have it, the last three months. kinda. my life has done a drastic 180 in these short three months like never before. and all for the better. i have such a huge appreciation for mothers. it is hard, wonderful, amazing, fun work:)  i am learning so much by being this boys mama. its insane. i thank my heavenly father every single day for letting me this ones mom (and i also ask for patience. lots and lots of patience;)). i find myself looking at his peaceful eyes as they sleep and can't believe he is mine. i think motherhood has made me such a crybaby;) i love it all though. i never was the girl that dreamed of my fairytale wedding, but what i did dream about was becoming a mom someday. and that day has come, and i am beyond grateful. 

xo